In 1983 I married. By 2003 I was an alcoholic.
I would drink vodka for breakfast while living in a nice house and raising 3 teenagers.
The constant state of anxiety coupled with my fear built to a crescendo over 23 years.
January 27th, 2006, the trapdoor opened and I flew out. . . away from that emotional roller coaster ride. . . into another. . .
There were more experiences to have.
The next relationship was more abusive, more extreme, and also built to a crescendo. This time in 3 years.
It ended with me in court facing into the relationship, looking at a photo album of pictures of my bruises, face and body.
I stopped, began to turn inward, to ask questions.
What happened and why?
I would listen to an Osho meditation every night at 6pm and fall asleep.
For a year I fell asleep and then one day I stayed awake during the entire meditation.
Then a man invited me to a workshop. I cried, and couldn’t stop, during the whole day.
I couldn’t understand what he was talking about and I felt really afraid.
He gave us a crystal to hold and asked us to meditate 3 times a day for 5 minutes feeling unconditional love.
I hadn’t heard those words together before – unconditional and love.
But I knew what that was. When I was a teenager my family got a dog. I loved that dog and would squeeze it until it ran away from me.
My children I unconditionally love. . . I know this feeling.
We all do. . . and it’s patient.
Journeys into the dark are a way to the Love, the light.
Repeating patterns of behaviour is a way to the light, the Love.
We can go full circle again and again with the Love, worth, joy for self, the balance, right there.
Forgiveness I’ve found to be invaluable, and compassion, heart discernment, and gratitude for everything.
This wisdom I found contemplating the tri-flame in the heart chakra.
Several years ago, I heard our planetary logos, Sanat Kumara, say we do not contemplate the tri-flame enough, so I started. . .
I found I control my self with the guilt of the past. Doing this I attract repeated lessons.
Now I volunteer in a drug and alcohol addiction recovery center with young people.
My journey into the dark is something to draw on. It is invaluable, priceless.
I am in gratitude to my self, that Golden Flame of the Father, in the tri-flame.
With compassion, my pink flame of self-Love, worth, and joy, and with forgiveness, the Mother’s Blue Flame for Self/All, I am finding balance, that place of no doubt.
As within so without.
How I feel within affects the whole.
Balance within creates balance without.
Have I forgiven myself?
Who Am I?
Discovery of Sacred Purpose
Hi, I’m Kathleen, owner of this website, Voice of Freedom, and also one of the editors of the Golden Age of Gaia. I wanted to share a little, in the video below, about my websites and discovery of sacred purpose, what I’ve been drawn to do in my spare time.
Before a few years ago I’d never have dreamed I’d become a volunteer helping women in recovery from addiction, mostly drug and alcohol addiction, but starting in 2018, after several years dedicated to meditation, I began driving once a week to spend time at a therapeutic community, John Volken Academy, about an hour from where I live.
At first I said I could teach the women to sew, and then I said I could organize haircuts and clothes – used, and then one weekend I was invited to a sweat lodge ceremony and an art show put on by Indigenous Elder.
In the van on the way home from one of these outings I was asked if I could organize a visit to some horses, and maybe go to the theatre.
“Of course,” I said, and that led to me finding Wisteria Acres and Krista Brown’s therapeutic horses, and then reaching out for donated tickets to go to Theatre Under the Stars in Stanley Park.
Krista at Wisteria Acres loved the women so much she asked if they could come again, so we had a second visit, and soon we will be going again this spring to be with her horses.
One thing led to another when I volunteered my time; it has been most wonderful.
These women have a really special place in my heart, and as they graduate from their two year program, we reach out to each other on Facebook, to stay in touch.
I’m learning that building our Nova Earth is all about connecting and helping each other. I feel so blessed to be friends with them, they are amazing.
Their path overcoming extreme addiction — forgiving themselves with their compassion and wisdom — and reaching back, helping each other, is really inspiring.
I’ve seen families watch in awe at the graduations as heart-wrenching explanations of journeys come forth, along with their enormous thanks to John Volken who created this amazing place to heal, this therapeutic community.
The higher realms, through channeled messages, encourage us to create societies where everyone is equal, to lift up our most vulnerable, and John is certainly doing that.
The Mother has blessed us with Universal Law to help us to create our Heaven on Earth. We, sitting still in meditation, invoking the Universal Law of Sacred Purpose, and listening with our hearts, can find what we came to do, our piece to the puzzle of Her Divine Plan.
I welcome you to reach out and contact me if you have questions.
I am great gratitude to Linda Dillon, Suzanne Maresca, and Steve Beckow for the InLight Radio Shows where we were gifted with information about Universal Laws, Divine Blessings, Virtues, Qualities, and the growth patterns of the 12 dimensions, the Mother’s Guidebook Home.
Monthly subscriptions are partly how I subsist. If you feel guided to make a donation — please see the side bars of this website — I thank you very much.
This money helps me to live, maintain my sites, and continue with my volunteer work with women in recovery.
Blessings to each of you.
Peace, Love, Joy