American band, The War on Drugs, released a song called, Pain, August of this year.
Within the lyrics are the words, “I resist what I cannot change.”
From personal experience the hardest moments to let go — trust and forgive — are the most painful, the ones I really don’t want to look at, what feels the most shameful.
“Pull me close and let me hold you in,
“Give me the deeper understanding of who I am.”
When I have the courage, allow myself to remember and be with my pain, I free myself.
In the interconnectedness of All, when I do this and let go, space opens for others to do the same.
My pain is your pain is my pain is your pain until I let go. . .
Go to bed now I can tell
Pain is on the way out now
Look away, a domino falls away
I know it’s hard lookin’ in
Knowin’ that tomorrow you’ll be back again
Hang your head and let me in, I’m waitin’
I was staring into the light
When I saw you in the distance, I knew that you’d be mine
Am I movin’ back in time?
Just standin’ still?
I met a man with a broken back
He had a fear in his eyes that I could understand
I can’t even shake the pain without breakin’
I’ve been pullin’ on a wire, but it just won’t break
I’ve been turnin’ up the dial, but I hear no sound
I resist what I cannot change
And I wanna find what can’t be found
I’m aware you’re tired and lost
Like a demon in a doorway, waiting to be born
But I’m here all alone, just beggin’
Pull me close and let me hold you in
Give me the deeper understanding of who I am
Yeah, I’m going back again, I’m waiting here
I’m just pullin’ on a wire, but it just won’t break
I’ve been turnin’ up a dial, but I hear no sound
I resist what I cannot change, own it in your own way
Yeah, I wanna find what can’t be found
I write Love with the Violet Flame
on that old house of pain.
I invoke St. Germaine and the Violet Flame
for me to accept and forgive everything,
to know my I Am, the I Am, the Love,
the Love of the Mother/Father One.